Searching for the Soul


Like man himself! In the beginning man was with God and part of the indivisible All, and he tore himself loose in spite of it. From this awareness of self over the course of billions of years there developed an awareness of the contradiction, “I”—and the world! And yet a part of the All clung to this “I”, was still imprisoned in this physical body, grew with it, died with it and was inseparable from its earthly remains.

And a great desire for liberation caused this soul to seek a false path and grope in the shameful darkness. It always ran back by the way which it had come to its original awareness of the “I” instead of to the “Not—I”, and did not know that the goal was at the other end.

The soul was conscious of the contradiction between the “I” and the “Not—I”, but the soul accepted the physical body as part of the “I”, even as the “I” itself did, and did not realize that the physical body was only a part of the “Not—I”. Thus man’s physical body became the unfortunate bridge that always led the soul back to the physical world of which it was a part. And all those souls driven by desire passed over it and descended deeper and deeper until they sank into God.

Yet how comical it was when the pious cried out that one must conquer the body! Their words were so wise, yet their understanding was so wrong. They did not conquer the body—but rather strengthened its power by all they did. They conquered the soul of man and became as beasts; they conquered the beasts inside and became as God.

But the time must come for the striding forth of the liberated human being. When the knowledge becomes so deep and so firmly rooted that each one knows his body is nothing other than some tree that stands in the forest, than some bird that flies in the air: than any foreign object that lies far in the distance! When each passionately feels that his body has nothing in common with his soul—and is as alien to him as a stone in the street , when the assurance reaches each consciousness that the external world may be all-embracing, yet, it fails to hold one thing, namely, the soul—then that great day will dawn—

Then the soul of man will tend the body well, like a temple, like a good house in which one dwells. Only, it will be a stranger, something external from us, and this knowledge alone will be the great conquest of the body. Then the bridge that leads downward will be broken; then the lunacy of our forefathers will perish; then the eternal desires will laugh happily as they kiss freedom and truth amidst their tears over the dark errors of the ages.

The Sorcerer’s Apprentice


The above was written by German author Hanns Heinz Ewers over a century ago! Or rather it is my translation of his words and thoughts into the English language. As I partake in more online discussion groups, in particular Mensa discussion groups I find that believing in the individual soul is not politically correct. I also find that attitude a little bit two-faced. Consider the question, “Is a loved one the same person after having a debilitating stroke? Is their awareness, their consciousness, still the same but hindered by physical damage caused by the stroke? Or have they in some way become less human? I have seen stroke victims struggle to find the words they desire to express and the frustration that they feel being physically unable to do so. To me this is direct evidence that individual awareness remains even though it might not be able to physically express itself


The question really becomes whether conscious awareness is purely energetic in nature or mechanical. Is individual awareness capable of being separated from the physical body or is it simply an expression of the physical body that dies when the physical body dies? While science almost unanimously denies the existence of the soul, it entertains such thoughts as the possibility of integrating human consciousness with machines or computers. Movies such as “Avatar” envision the ability of human awareness to transfer itself from one physical body to another! For some reason science admits the possibilities of these things while denying the possibility of the existence of the soul. I find that very troubling!


Equinox Showdown!

Tomorrow is the full moon leading up to the March equinox and we are already seeing how the energies will be unfolding. In regards to national politics there is a crisis surrounding leaks of classified information and accusations of wiretapping. Congress is investigating these things, or I should say is just beginning to investigate these things. The top leaders of the Senate and House of Representatives are being briefed on what lies ahead. We can expect more disclosure at the public release of information in a few weeks at the equinox. It is not surprising that this public report will be issued at this time. There is a divine timing in these things.


Two conflicting realities are in a battle for existence and only one can survive. By the equinox we will know which one survives and which one fails. But in reality, we already know the answer to this. We have seen the continuing and enduring answer to this during the last few months. There is a new energy in town and that  new energy will survive! In this ideological conflict of globalization and collectivism versus individualization and self empowerment it is the individual whose turn it is to become empowered! The recent WikiLeaks dump of CIA classified documents shows the extent of police state tactics used to gather personal information on individuals.


What is not being told is that this global surveillance data is being used by computers with AI and not just law enforcement singling out individuals. Self programming and self learning computers are able to identify deviations from normal social patterns and learn from them. To do this they need massive amounts of information from everyone! In a global transparent society any behavior outside the norm will light up like a neon sign. What we are looking at is not surveillance of individuals, but surveillance of an entire population that identifies individual patterns for closer observation. What this means is that non conformists will stand out against a background of bland herd like animals. Once identified they can be singled out for closer observation.

The War Between Realities

There is a distinction between reality and actuality. Actuality is what exists independently of what we think or believe and that actuality determines the final fate of our choices in life. This is pretty self evident.

But what is not so self evident is the power that individual realities have upon each one of us as individuals and as populations. It can be argued that individual reality is far more powerful and important than actuality because each one of us will always act upon what we believe to be true, our personal reality, and not upon what actually exists. Ultimately the judge of our actions will be based upon actuality, but all too often belief in a different reality creates  a situation where realities collide.

Today’s world has become such a place where actuality is no longer considered important and competing realities try to present evidence of their importance and reality in ways that defy common sense and personal life experience. These competing realities continue to become farther and farther removed from the actuality of things to the point where madness is taking over. The question is what are we going to do about it?

Wave of Expansion

This last couple of weeks have been very crazy for me personally and much has been happening on many levels. There seems to be a wave of expansive energy that is forcing a shift in our life circumstances. This means our social status is changing and the people in our immediate environments. For me this is a good thing, although a bit overwhelming. My sphere of influence has dramatically increased as I reach out to entirely new people. Energetically this is a very significant and empowering thing of consequence. I am interacting with entirely new people on an entirely new level. My personal satisfaction with life is increasing as well. I feel a bit more supported by the universe and I feel like I’ve found my soul family.

But I know several others whose lives are collapsing and becoming smaller. The same shift is happening and not in a good way. Health issues erupt and strokes cause loss of speech for example, people requiring 24 hour care who used to live on their own. These things happen all the time, but this seems to be happening with a vengeance right now and close to home. Good people, but with anger issues which makes things worse for them. The shadow is erupting all over the place.

For those ascending with Gaia and on the expansive wave of things this is an extraordinary time of life changing enhancements. Ride the wave and go with the flow. This pressure wave is going to continue increasing until the spring equinox so flow with it and don’t expect anything to stand still before that. All I can say is try to find something expansive and stick with it. Don’t fall into the old restrictive energies, but if you do, at least try to keep your spirits high. The soul is much more important than the physical body.


The Social Stigma of Genius

by Joe Bandel

I recently had an interesting insight into my own self defeating behaviors and those of our society. All my life I have been smart; I joined Mensa for the first time in 1988, left almost immediately and then rejoined in 2002 only to repeat the cycle and drop out again until yesterday when I renewed my membership for the third time in over 28 years. You see, I have been taught to be ashamed of being a genius! Even now I think about wording it differently, ashamed of my intelligence, ashamed of having a genius IQ. Part of me wants to word it more politely, to be more politically correct and not hurt anyone’s feelings or offend them. It’s just like because I’m tall (6’4″) I stoop self consciously so I don’t stand out so much. What’s that all about anyway?

There is a hierarchy to our society. Certain people are held in higher regard than others. They have a higher social status and are treated differently and with more respect than others. Some examples of those at the top are: Doctors, scientists, athletes, authors and members of the clergy. Perhaps we can even say politicians! Most of us remain stuck at the social level we were born into. Except for the rare ones who excel  on their own like singers, artists and athletes, the only escape is through the education system.

The rest of us struggle tooth and nail for every bit of self regard we can find. You want to be a writer so you take a course on writing. The teacher is very helpful at lifting your skills to a certain point, but when you begin to go beyond the abilities of your teacher that same teacher tries putting you back in your place, below their own status. They are the teacher, you are the student. You can see this played out over and over again in all areas of life. It is a fact of nature!

But when you show up with a Mensa bumper sticker on your car, or take your Mensa water jug to work where others can see it things change radically. You think of yourself differently. People treat you differently because they don’t know how to relate to you any more. That is because genius is at the absolute top of the social pyramid! Now they place themselves beneath you and that is the stupid part. To score at the top 2% of the general population means that one in every fifty people is probably a genius and able to get into Mensa. (notice how I said that instead of saying, “can probably score high enough to get into Mensa”) But they won’t do it; they won’t even try because they don’t believe in themselves strongly enough. They lack the healthy self esteem to even attempt taking the test. The saddest thing is that joining Mensa is perhaps the single most empowering thing a person can do for themselves in our society and for their own self esteem.

The Wrath of God

I’ve been pretty quiet this past few weeks trying to get a handle on the energies we are dealing with right now and the astral activity, including what is happening on the etheric plane. We just had a major full moon, the first major full moon of the new year and the new energies. The sense that I have is that the Wrath of God has been called forth and things are going to get very violent very rapidly.

But this violence is going to have a very interesting quality. The Wrath of God is going to steamroller all opposing energies and peoples as if they were nothing. From this coming time period up to the March equinox if you feel you are being steamrollered my advice is to take shelter and get out of the fray!

You are going to see things being forced through brute strength. The kid gloves are coming off and people are going to get hurt. Step back and think about this for a minute. What is going to physically manifest has already happened in the astral planes. The battle in the astral planes is now over and this physical eruption is simply the remaining release of long held tensions. Physical manifestation is now governed by different natural laws and processes. The blockage of old eon energetics is complete! Let me say that again, but louder this time: THE BLOCKAGE OF OLD EON ENERGETICS IS COMPLETE!

There is not a snowball’s chance in hell of favorable outcomes for those that now defy Gaia’s new eon energetics and new energy grid. They are going to be pushed to the side as if they didn’t exist. Keep love in your hearts and do not enter into anger or dramatics or negative spirals. The Wrath of God is an icy and cold anger that is not touched in any way by emotional considerations. It is not personal.

Those that willingly choose to set themselves against what God has decreed will pay the price of their choice. Please be sensitive and open to changing conditions and use prayer and meditation to remain in your highest place.

New Moon Message

By now the frenzied energetics are settling into their new places. Here in the United States there is a rising optimism as large segments of a forgotten population begin to hope for the first time. Globalism is over! Individual power sent out to external authorities is now finally returning back to the individuals. Let’s take a look at what has happened energetically during these past months. The politically correct “idea” no longer impels obedience from the populace. The way this seems to be working out is quite strange and radical at the same time.


The news media and neurotic alt-left Democrats seem to have chosen a path of permanent obstructionism. What these people don’t see is how they are being played for fools! Main Street News media is filled with outraged reports over nonpolitically correct things our new president has said while totally ignoring the massive consequences of his actions during his first week in office. I am reminded of a magic show where the magician turns the attention of the audience away from the real trick with sleight-of-hand techniques.


For several years I worked as a family crisis counselor. I soon learned for the sake of my own sanity to not listen to what people say, but to focus instead upon what they were actually doing! It is the nature of the mind and philosophical speculations  for people to invent fictions and excuses to justify themselves in their own minds. This inner mental dialogue often becomes strong enough to replace physical reality itself! That’s where society is right now! But it remains a mind trip! It has no relation to physical reality!


Our society has become so decadent that those at the top of the social ladder no longer relate to the physical world of experience the less privileged have to endure. They like the status quo because it works for them, works quite well  Indeed! But the status quo is now crumbling like a cement wall whose mortar is crumbling. During the past seven days legal events have taken place that will have large repercussions upon the future of our society. These events have gone largely unnoticed and underreported by the Main Street News media. But the consequences of those actions remain whether they have been reported upon or not. This is the full extent of the illusion cast by the Main Street  Media itself. It refuses to see what is actually happening, preferring instead to emotionally agitate its readers. The problem with this is that factions of our society have become so decadent that all they are capable of is a large temper tantrum! A tempest in a teapot, full of sound and  fury, yet  signifying nothing!


In the meantime genuine men and women of action and realistic, grounded priorities are collectively working together in harmony to make this world a far better place. There is nothing theoretical about them and often they don’t say much. But their actions speak loudly!


Between now and the spring equinox in March we will see an unprecedented populist movement that literally shrugs away any head tripping opposition that stands in its way. There will be screaming, shouting and wringing of hands, but to no avail. Globalism is dead!  The individualist reigns supreme! This means a resurgence of nationalism, states rights, local government and the empowerment of local communities in an unprecedented way. Individuals will be empowered in ways that have never even been considered before except in those days at the birth of our nation. we are now rediscovering the dream of our founding fathers! New opportunities will open up to everyone, but not everyone will be open to the opportunities. Success will be in direct proportion to the personal effort extended. Those that don’t try will not gain. Those that try with all their heart, mind and soul will reap uncounted rewards! These rewards will come from sustained creative effort and will never come from destructive, oppositional and defiant political views not based upon physical reality. “The last will be first, and the first will become the last!” Pres. Trump is not really in conflict with these oppositional forces, but instead chooses to ignore them and send them on false goose chases.